It's hard to remember

 I seem to forget that my 3 year old is only 3.

When I look at him and see him interacting with other kids

I don't see a 3 year old.

But last night when I called the boys from work, 

I heard Kohen talking in the background

and he sounded like a 3 year old.

And maybe sometimes I expect more from him

because in my brain somewhere 

I think he's older than he really is.

He keeps asking when his birthday is...

he wants to be five he says.

In a few more months we'll be celebrating his 4th birthday.

I can't believe it!

I need to remember that he is my baby

and to not wish these years away, 

they won't be here forever.

there are days when I catch myself saying, 

"only one more year til kindergarten" 

but I know it will actually break my heart when he starts school.

On my way to work yesterday it felt like I was forgetting something

because I was all alone in the car, and it felt kinda weird.

Usually I like the peaceful quietness of driving by myself to work.

Whatever it was, I guess I needed that reminder yesterday.